Out of expectation

I really don't know how many times this happened. But today, it happened again. People should not put high expectation on something that they want, more directly is I want. I really cannot take the feelings of out of expectation, it totally pull me down into the valleys, as if I couldn't climb up anymore. Tears are flowing crazily, heart is aching so hard and my mind is totally disrupted.
I hate, I hate people who make a promise to me but they didn't meant it. And when they break their promises, they will give a lot of excuses, hoping that you'll be considerate and forgive them.
Seriously, I admit I'm not the considerate one. I try to be but I cannot.
Trying very hard not to upset by that but failed.
Trying not to think about it but failed.
Trying to concentrate on other things but failed.
Perhaps a good cry can wash away everything.

Be Appreciate

I received this email saying the above. This is not the first time the same e-mail, instead it's the 2nd time. Still, after reading it, I still have a very strong feeling toward it. The facts totally draw all my attention. And I feel like crying after that. I think we should really learn to be appreciate, no matter how small a thing is, we should appreciate. Things that we're complaining for being not good enough, on the other hand is very good for the children in Africa! Oh Lord, please bless the children there. And I hope in future if I have the chance, I'll lend a helping hand to them. May all the kids healthy always. They have the right to see this wonderful world, meet wonderful people in the world and try all the funs!

Mariah Fever

Since the day I watched the night of Mariah Carey in American Idol, I just couldn't take my eyes and ears off Mariah. (Sound a bit disgusting I know) But, that's me! Music is my life.
Her new song entitled "Bye Bye" make me so addicted.
I am touched by her voice, by the melody and by the lyrics.
My favourite phase in that song : " Never know I could hurt like this" It just hit the nail deep in my heart!
Though the song sounds easy to be sing, but there's lots of emotions that need to be put in.
I plan to sing this on my next visit to karaoke, haha.
Though the song is written for her passed away grandmother, but if it's dedicated to the lover, it sounds not bad too.
I don't know how to upload music here, if not I shall share with people out there.
Recommended song: Bye Bye from the album E=MC2!

Mariah Carey

American Idol Season 7 had the "Mariah Carey Night" for the latest show.
It turned out the guys are singing much more better than the girls.
This can be explained.
Mariah is being so powerful, unique and gorgeous that the girls cannot be compared to her!
When a girl is singing Mariah's song, automatically you'll make comparison to both of them.
Of course, on the other hand, if it's a guy singing Mariah's, that can't be compared.
Guys in Mariah's sound fresh.
Anyway, I personally just love David Cook. He has the voice, he has the look and of course he is unique! I browse Youtube and lots of other websites, many of them predicted that David Cook is the next American Idol. I think he has the potential too!
Coming back to Mariah, I can't forget most of her greatest hits. She can sing the soul of the song out, sing in her own way, sing with her fantastic voice and technique. I was really amazed by her range of voice. I remembered that she has 8 octaves of range! Wow!
You're LEGEND.

Insomnia

Have you ever experienced insomnia?
I admit that I'm those who can sleep well no matter where am I or what time.
But, last night I had insomnia! This is really a rare case for me.
My health is signaling a red light for me. Nah, I don't think so. I think I'm mentally stressed now.
I am having my study break now. The tonnes of notes make me almost going insane.
Though I still go on quite steadily but unconsciously it makes my mental wearing.
Yew! I hate the feelings of couldn't sleep.
I was turning around and around on my bed for the whole night.
Because I was so conscious, and I started thinking nonsense.
I thought of whether if there's something supernatural was bothering me and made me stuck in such condition =.=" (I know I have creative imagination)
But bear on mind that I'm a science student, so I have to make evidence-based hypothesis.
Anyway, I hope I can get well, and continue with my battle!
Looking forward to the D-day.

Praying Hard

I've just arranged all my lecture notes that need to be done during my study break.
Hell! They are freaking thick, as thick as an anatomy book!
I wonder if i could finish all of them on time. *worried*
Anyway, to avoid incidence of "can't finish on time", I did a timetable for myself.
My whole 3 weeks of study break have to be fully utilized- from 9 in the morning until 12 at midnight. Of course, I did spare some time for bathing, meals and even exercise.
I just hope my time-table is well-organized and hopefully, it's effective.
I'm really afraid of the scenario that i encountered last semester- when i had tachycardia and insomnia because I just couldn't finish reading up.
The worst is- I can't remember what I'd studied! That's nightmare!
May GOD bless me, I really need lots of strength and mentally strong to sail through this.

Wedding Gowns

MERMAID

The mermaid cut is characterized by a narrow, body-hugging bodice that flares dramatically, at or below the knee.

SHEATH

A modern, glamorous take on the traditional wedding gown, the sheath is characterized by a slim profile that closely follows the curves of the body.

A-LINE

The A-line cut is narrow at the top, cut close to the ribcage, and extends out along the body in the shape of a triangle (or "A") in a smooth, elongated line.

BALL GOWN

The ball gown is a classic shape with a fitted bodice and very full skirt that brushes the floor. The pick-up skirt is a modern interpretation of this silhouette.

BASQUE

Characterized by an elongated triangle forming just beneath the natural waistline.

EMPIRE

Typified by a high-waisted seam just below the bust line, deriving its name from the style’s popularity during the Empire period in France.

Wow! I'm really amazed by those graceful, whitish, classical wedding gown. Especially the SHEATH & BALL gown. 2 of them are damn attractive for me.

Hmm, I think i'm desperate of my wedding now. Haha. It's normal, I'm almost at the age already. Don't say I'm desperate, I just desire/ hope/ dream about my own wedding. Every girl will do, don't you think so?

Adapted from: http://www.davidsbridal.com/styleguide_dressguide.jsp

Study Break Planning

Finally, I have come to the very important break in this semester.
I have a lots of thought on what should I do during this break.
I have 8 modules to conquer in just 3 weeks time. A bit worry for that actually.
During class test, I did quite well. But I'm very sure that's not enough to get an A in final exam.
So, I am quite determined to just push myself to maximum in order to maintain my result.
I pray hard, for being able to finish my target.
Laziness, slackiness and sleepy please go away from me!
May God bless me and also my dear.
We want to move 1 step nearer to our future!

Time for my own

I have been unconsciously become dependent.
I still remember the time that I used to be a independent, cheerful girl.
And I believe that I can, turn back the time, and be the real me.
In fact, I ought to, no choice.

I have to:

1. use to being alone at home during weekends
2. use to eat alone and simple at home during weekends
3. cook for only 1 person but not 2
4. utilized my time fully with something but not day-dreaming/ being down
5. use to take care of myself when i'm sick
6. rely only to myself if i have a problem
7. stick to my friends more
8. spend my time doing things i usually don't have the chance to
9. enjoy being alone and can find my own fun
10. go shopping alone
11. use to seeing couples in the mall
12. make something that I want to eat but not for others
13. be happy always
14. concentrate in my studies more
15. work hard in my career
16. spend more time with my family
17. should not upset of small little thing
18. be tough as i use to be
19. should not cry that often
20. should not love that deep

Recipe for Cheesecake

I'm planning to make this during my semester break.

= Pineapple Cheesecake =

Ingredients

Set A

1. 24 pieces of Marie biscuits


2. 125g butter

Set B

1. 1 tin of pineapple rings. Cut up.


2. 4 tbsp pineapple water


3. 1 can of Nestle cream


4. Half packet (1 packet= 250g) Philadephia cheese


5. 5g gelatin


6. 2 and a half tbsp sugar

Instructions

1. Use ingredient set A. Rub butter into finely crushed Marie biscuits.


2. Make the cake base by pressing the mixed biscuits into a big-plastic-disposable container.


3. Refrigerate for 1 hour (at least).


4. Put ingredient set B in a pot, mix well and bring to boil. Not too long or else the mixture will be oily.


5. Let the mixture cool for about half an hour then spread evenly onto the cake base.


6. Refrigerate to firmness.

Looking forward to it. Hopefully it turns out to be a good one. :)

In love with you

I love this song very much ' In Love With You'.
As you grew up older, you'll really know what's love.
It's the utmost happy thing being loved.
There is always somebody taking care for you, listening to you, looking at you,
concern about you and worry about you.
It's a sweet thing when he said you're all of his life, only you can stand in his heart,
he only wants you and the greatest- he wanna live the rest of his life with you!
Of course, i'm also in love with my family.
Being away from home, you can't imagine I got homesick as I'm an extrovert.
I will miss home, really.
I miss my comfy and cozy home, miss my cute parents, miss mom's cooking, miss the time being the companion to my parents, miss my chit chat session with them! GOSH, really feel like going back.
But I have to stay strong for the upcoming challenge before I can go back.
I'll wait for the day. The day I'm craving for.

BR Day

It's the 31st of the month. As usual, Baskin Robbin is having the 31% off. We managed to line up and had bought a quart-sized handpacked ice-cream. There are 2 flavours, both my favourite: Macademia Nut & Very Berry Strawberry.

And we had our ice-cream dinner.

GOSH! I know that high in calories, but I'm deadly addicted to ice-cream.

I will just start licking the ice-cream without any second thought. Haha.

This is one of the things in my must-do-list.

Can you imagine a couple is having a bucket of ice-cream together?

Yeah, it's very sweet!

Be a housewife

I wouldn't believe I, myself can be a great housewife since young.
Because I hate cooking, I hate the oily feeling and I hate doing all the house chores.
But now, I'm very use to doing all kind of house chores, even washing the toilet bowl!
So, I realised one thing, we, human really can't judge one thing too early.
Everything can be changed at any time.
Now, Im glad doing a housewife-like-job.
Cooking, washing clothes, cleaning up the house, prepare him lunch & sort of take-away food for him as his dinner or whatsoever.
I might not be the great housewife (my cooking is bad sometimes), but at least I'm a good one.
Am I insane talking about being a housewife here??
Yeah I guess I'm. I'm day-dreaming.