Almost at the End

Can't believe that I've already finished 5 out of the total 8 subjects in this semester.
It was really a challenging, dreadful, tiring and stress semester for me.
I was quite amazed about how could I stuck in all of the notes into my brain.
But anyway, I'm glad that I could still manage to handle the questions, though some might turn out not satisfactory, around borderline I guess.
For the very first time, I have the feeling of just letting it go.
I'm being so fed up with all the exams going on, and I really want to sit for it without revising once again before the paper. However, I'm not that daring (coward!). I dare not to use my results as the token for gambling.
I'm a drug abuser during exam time. I take pills everyday for headache, fever, stomachache, diarrhea etc. I know this is nonsense, but it happened!
I really took all the medicines, to ease my conditions, perhaps they are just psychological placebo to make me more calm and peace.
Alright, now 3 more to go, and I am slacking, being very slow and steady. Revising without memorizing, just scanning and reading. I hope this works! I really cannot take in anymore and that's what can I do. I must pray hard. I had try my very best, I just desperately need a pass to the next semester. Then I'll be alright.
Couldn't wait any longer for the vacation! I got lotsa plans are waiting for me!
Still, PRAY HARD! May God Bless me!

Out of expectation

I really don't know how many times this happened. But today, it happened again. People should not put high expectation on something that they want, more directly is I want. I really cannot take the feelings of out of expectation, it totally pull me down into the valleys, as if I couldn't climb up anymore. Tears are flowing crazily, heart is aching so hard and my mind is totally disrupted.
I hate, I hate people who make a promise to me but they didn't meant it. And when they break their promises, they will give a lot of excuses, hoping that you'll be considerate and forgive them.
Seriously, I admit I'm not the considerate one. I try to be but I cannot.
Trying very hard not to upset by that but failed.
Trying not to think about it but failed.
Trying to concentrate on other things but failed.
Perhaps a good cry can wash away everything.

Be Appreciate

I received this email saying the above. This is not the first time the same e-mail, instead it's the 2nd time. Still, after reading it, I still have a very strong feeling toward it. The facts totally draw all my attention. And I feel like crying after that. I think we should really learn to be appreciate, no matter how small a thing is, we should appreciate. Things that we're complaining for being not good enough, on the other hand is very good for the children in Africa! Oh Lord, please bless the children there. And I hope in future if I have the chance, I'll lend a helping hand to them. May all the kids healthy always. They have the right to see this wonderful world, meet wonderful people in the world and try all the funs!

Mariah Fever

Since the day I watched the night of Mariah Carey in American Idol, I just couldn't take my eyes and ears off Mariah. (Sound a bit disgusting I know) But, that's me! Music is my life.
Her new song entitled "Bye Bye" make me so addicted.
I am touched by her voice, by the melody and by the lyrics.
My favourite phase in that song : " Never know I could hurt like this" It just hit the nail deep in my heart!
Though the song sounds easy to be sing, but there's lots of emotions that need to be put in.
I plan to sing this on my next visit to karaoke, haha.
Though the song is written for her passed away grandmother, but if it's dedicated to the lover, it sounds not bad too.
I don't know how to upload music here, if not I shall share with people out there.
Recommended song: Bye Bye from the album E=MC2!

Mariah Carey

American Idol Season 7 had the "Mariah Carey Night" for the latest show.
It turned out the guys are singing much more better than the girls.
This can be explained.
Mariah is being so powerful, unique and gorgeous that the girls cannot be compared to her!
When a girl is singing Mariah's song, automatically you'll make comparison to both of them.
Of course, on the other hand, if it's a guy singing Mariah's, that can't be compared.
Guys in Mariah's sound fresh.
Anyway, I personally just love David Cook. He has the voice, he has the look and of course he is unique! I browse Youtube and lots of other websites, many of them predicted that David Cook is the next American Idol. I think he has the potential too!
Coming back to Mariah, I can't forget most of her greatest hits. She can sing the soul of the song out, sing in her own way, sing with her fantastic voice and technique. I was really amazed by her range of voice. I remembered that she has 8 octaves of range! Wow!
You're LEGEND.

Insomnia

Have you ever experienced insomnia?
I admit that I'm those who can sleep well no matter where am I or what time.
But, last night I had insomnia! This is really a rare case for me.
My health is signaling a red light for me. Nah, I don't think so. I think I'm mentally stressed now.
I am having my study break now. The tonnes of notes make me almost going insane.
Though I still go on quite steadily but unconsciously it makes my mental wearing.
Yew! I hate the feelings of couldn't sleep.
I was turning around and around on my bed for the whole night.
Because I was so conscious, and I started thinking nonsense.
I thought of whether if there's something supernatural was bothering me and made me stuck in such condition =.=" (I know I have creative imagination)
But bear on mind that I'm a science student, so I have to make evidence-based hypothesis.
Anyway, I hope I can get well, and continue with my battle!
Looking forward to the D-day.

Praying Hard

I've just arranged all my lecture notes that need to be done during my study break.
Hell! They are freaking thick, as thick as an anatomy book!
I wonder if i could finish all of them on time. *worried*
Anyway, to avoid incidence of "can't finish on time", I did a timetable for myself.
My whole 3 weeks of study break have to be fully utilized- from 9 in the morning until 12 at midnight. Of course, I did spare some time for bathing, meals and even exercise.
I just hope my time-table is well-organized and hopefully, it's effective.
I'm really afraid of the scenario that i encountered last semester- when i had tachycardia and insomnia because I just couldn't finish reading up.
The worst is- I can't remember what I'd studied! That's nightmare!
May GOD bless me, I really need lots of strength and mentally strong to sail through this.